Thank you

three sleeping boys. thank you Lord.
for baby Luke rocking soundly asleep in his swing. he'll be awake again in two hours to eat. thank you Lord that he is healthy. thank you for his first smile yesterday. It was quick and it didn't last long because he is still learning but in those 2 seconds he melted my heart and made my day. his name says it all "gift from God".

Caleb is upstairs laying on top of his bed because he likes to sleep with his animal blanket and not under the covers. with cody the camel snuggled close to his chest I tuck him in and pull his blanket up to his little chin...he gives me a wet kiss goodnight. I love kissing him on the left side of his forehead where his cowlick pushes his blonde hair back. it's the perfect place for a kiss. thank you Lord. he is pure joy to me.

Josh-my oldest son- oh thank you Lord! He's so dear to my heart. He's getting so big Lord. Thank you for his long skinny legs. Thank you for allowing me to care for him. before bed i put chapstick on his little lips because he sleeps with his mouth open and his lips get chapped. thank you Lord that I am his Mommy. He doesn't like to sleep with his animals anymore. Dory is now one of the many stuffed animals in the toy basket. But not to me...Dory fish holds a special place in my heart. i remember when Matt brought her home from Kentucky for Josh. I remember thinking "he brought home the blue Dory fish out of all the characters in Finding Nemo?" But in the heart of this little boy Dory was his fish. She became a fixture in our house. We took her on all of our trips. We spent many nights going back down the stairs after tucking Josh into bed looking to find his Dory. I remember the day he road on the lawnmower with Matt and accidentally dropped Dory. He brought Dory in to me because Matt accidentally ran over her. We sewed her back together which ended up being one of many times that we would have to sew Dory back together. i remember one of the times that I had come to the end of myself and the Lord so gently revealed to me that I was like that Dory fish. I will never forget the freedom that came to me. Lord thank you for Dory. Thank you for the little boy that cared so deeply for her, that prized his father's gift, and that is now upstairs sleeping without her. Lord, i think after this blog entry I might start sleeping with Dory.

Matt is across the world tonight. thank you Lord that he is so close to my heart and not far from my thoughts. thank you for uniting us as one. i can see him now in my thoughts. i wonder if he has scratched his arm today and how many times that he has talked about us to other people. i wonder how many times he has made the team laugh and how many times he has talked in a chinese accent. i think of the ways he must be so impressive to the people he is meeting with just like he is to me. i wonder how many times he's felt honored to be sitting where he is and how many times he's thanked you for going before him. thank you Lord for my husband. thank you.

thank you for this computer. thank you that it's been a window into his world these past few days. it's been hard to leave it. but Lord thank you. you have always been so sweet to me.

Thank you for the "Comfort & Joy" tea that I am drinking in this huge Hong Kong Starbuck's cup. I remember buying the tea after Christmas last year on sale. Lord you know that i love finding things like that. and the HK cup. I picked it to drink out of tonight for the very same reasons the boys and i have eaten noodles and pot stickers. It's because where he is and what he's doing is where and what we want to be doing as well. Thank you Lord for these desires.

Thank you for this time- it's been priceless. you Jesus are priceless to me. thank you for your love. for your gentle care. for your leading. for your shepherding. for your sovereignty. thanks for a bigger story. thank you for allowing me to be a part. thank you for your divine appointments. for the works that you planned before time. thanks for being my center. Jesus thank you.

Fun at the Beach

 
  

How Cute!!!

 
 
 
  

Happy Easter!! He has Risen!!!

So Handsome!!!
The Earth Shall Declare His Glory!!

The cousins at the Frazer Eggstravaganza!! 

Your Presence

The search for truth and finding it in all its purity is one of the most amazing gifts that Father has given us in His Holy Spirit.
To be set free by His spoken word and to be literally changed by his revelation will forever be one of my greatest enjoyments of His presence in my life.

My bondage is his boast as He breaks the chains that have held me captive, keeping me broken, and dulled to his pursuit.
Chains are as thread to him, binding my assumed reality- but not His.
For the life this world dishes out is of no reality to those who have been called by God to live in His reality.
Any life that is found a part from Christ is actually no life at all.
For all life is found in Him.

The choices given are simple in sound but difficult in the moment of decision.

Will I live from his saving powerful presence to rescue me from any present war that has been waged on my heart.
Or will I give in and become entangled by the threads of bondage designed to keep me paralyzed from moving and having my being in Him.

In my moments of desperation, with fear and trembling, I choose to declare my dependence on You- not for what you can do for me but because in these moments I am drinking deeply of your salvation.
I am being caught up in your ever present help in my time of trouble.

Oh Lord Jesus- you are so good.

Would you boast in breaking me free from my bondage…
Would you marvel at the ways that you have set me free…
Would you delight in yourself as you woo me in my frailty…
Would you be glad to show me the goodness of who you are….
Would you be pleased to hear that you are the best thing that you have to offer…

Jesus your presence in my life means everything to me for without your presence death is my only option.

I breathe you
I glory in you
I boast in you
I delight in you

And I am forever grateful for you

My Gifts

I love being their Mommy!

YOU

"You are a citizen of Heaven,
a member of royalty,
a chosen person of strength,
compassion, mercy, and power.

You are a living representation of Zion,
the city of God.
All the streams of joy that are in God
flow forth from Zion.
Revelation 22:1 describes these waters as
a pure river of the water of life. It is
flowing and is clear as crystal, proceeding
from the throne of God. The throne of God
is in Zion, and this river of the water of
life is intended to flow out through You,
God's ambassador!

You have more than an annointing.
You are a river! Your annointing is
something that is living and vibrant and powerful.
This living annointing resides in you.
It is the living, vibrant essence of His
power that He has deposited in you.

There are people all around you who need you.
They need your annointing, and they need your
strength.

They need God's living, vibrant power that
lives inside of you." -Don Nori

I have been chewing on these words from a book i am reading.
They move me and they excite me.

If only we understood what it means in all it's
fullness what it means to have the Spirit of God
dwelling inside of us.

Oh Holy Spirit give us understanding that we might
declare and display your glory!

What We Feared Has Happened

So last night after a long day of caring for my sick Joshie
and trying to do my best to keep Caleb away from this virus-
It happened.

3 o'clock in the morning to be exact-
not only did Caleb wake up throwing up,
but Matt did as well.

Today has been an interesting day.
3 sick babies.
With about 4 hours of sleep and 3 exhausting days
being Mommy Nurse already under my belt, I had no
idea how today was going to work.

But praise be to our Lord Jesus-
He has given me supernatural strength and energy
to care for them every step of the way.

I am boasting about this because I know that it is true.

The night before I had told Matt that I would need his
help because I was completely out.

In these circumstances that I feared- He has shown me
His strength and faithfulness TO DO IT ALL THROUGH ME.
Glory be to Him in this current trial that envelops us.

As of now- they are all sleeping.
Josh is doing much better. He is not throwing up anymore
but still has diarrhea.
Katie B. I have gone through a whole tube of Desitin!

Caleb is still running fever off and on,
does'nt have much of an appetite but thankfully is not
throwing up anymore either.

Matthew is still in and out of nausea- so hopefully the
worst has already past.

As for me I am still well, thankfully being able to care
for my family with the power that works within me- namely Christ.

I boast in you this evening Jesus- because I could not have done it without you.

I want you as my community to know that I am being changed by him.
Today he changed me. I am different today than I was yesterday.

It's amazing what brand new perspective will do.

Please continue to pray for my family.